PAIN AND BLISS
THE FETISH PSYCHE
RELATING TO BDSM
PRAISING SUB MEN
CULTURAL SM MYTH
FOR A NEW DOMINA
A FISH STORY
SEX AND BRAINS
THE KEY TO JOY
REALITY: THE FACTS
HUMOR: THE RULES
Why Seek Painful Experiences?
So maybe you are saying to yourself, "I hate pain, I can't imagine why anyone would seek it deliberately".
Breaking the Wall. The Endorphin Glow.
All kinds of physical sensations can provoke endorphin release, pain to pleasure to scratching or tickling, heat and cold, prolonged immobility like a cramped airline seat will do it. (bondage)
A little sensation produces a little endorphin, sensations taken to the physical limit of the senses produce a massive dump of endorphin throughout the body that resembles orgasm in some ways, but is more pleasurable. "Runner's high".
Personally, I like to get there by overloading my pleasure circuits. Tantric Extended Orgasm.
It is this same effect that is the basis of the training I do. It is the basis of the BDSM Tantric Mystery School I am manifesting.
Many years ago (1990?) as a "vanilla" grrrl I cast a wish/decision/prayer that I had had enough of suffering and henceforth wanted/chose to learn from bliss, instead. At that time I vibrated with the confirmation that my prayer had been heard and looked to see it's manifestation.
Still suffering came, but Goddess answer was to draw me gradually into this strange BDSM world to unrepress my own attitudes and know firsthand that there are those who seek suffering actively, because for them it is bliss, and to learn their secret. My version of "dancing in the cremation grounds"... or is it meditating..??
There are still some kinds of pain that I try to avoid... physical and emotional sensations that I have not yet learned to accept with gratitude... tough to love a migraine, but where once my migraines used to last for three days to a week, now they are seldom and not more than a day. I accept their occasional presence as a part of my Tao... it feels so good when it stops!
The form of the light is defined by the shadows... they need each other to give us all of the colors and textures we perceive. The perfection we do not see because we go out of the moment into conditioned attitudes and judgments. Yet pain is wonderfully focusing, and it is really difficult to not be in the moment with the pain when it is occurring... it demands attention like nothing else. When we are hurting is when we are most likely to surrender and "Run Home to Mother". Blessed be.
Ever get one of those little long handled bamboo or plastic back scratchers?
When you do stop, you will also notice that your mood is considerably elevated, like you've got a buzz on.
Endorphins are what the body uses to block sensations that are intense and cannot be escaped.
Of course being produced by the body's own natural biochemical factory, not only are they legal and safe, (as long as you are not a heart patient) but they're also considered by most folks to be non-addictive.
At least, in as much that any very intensely pleasurable sensation is non-addictive.
In fact, endorphin release is considered healthy, as it promotes the release of all kinds of other hormones and bio chemicals that regulate physical and mental processes.
Mind you, anything taken to extremes can become dangerous.
Many years ago, long before I discovered my BDSM tendencies, I had a plantars wart on my finger that was pissing me off. It was not the first time I had had the wart, and I was profoundly unimpressed with doctors removal techniques.
Then I pressed the wart against the tip of my iron for as long as I could, watching as from a distance as my body twitched and shivered in reaction like electricity. Going well beyond my normal pain thresholds. Taking my finger off when I really couldn't stand it, but holding an ice cube on the wart till it went numb and then frying it again. Over and over. I kept it up until the wart was a shiny flat scorched looking thing.
Freaked my fiance at the time *right* out, but, afterwards, I noticed that I felt like I was in an altered state that was *wonderful*.
Clear headed, relaxed, peaceful, serene as the buddha, my body tingling.
Working on untangling the negative cycle that produced my eczema, I made a few discoveries.
Then, when I occasionally did allow myself to scratch, I discovered how extremely pleasurable I found the sensation, and a light bulb went off.
I know it sounds like a strange idea, but I was hurting myself to feel better!
The other thing that I used to do quite unconsciously several times a day is to wander over to the sink and turn on the hot water tap, washing my hands until the water is very hot and I am shivering with the pleasure/pain of it. I started doing this because, not surprisingly, I have eczema on my hands, and hot water would temporarily soften the hard dry skin and numb the itching, as well as washing off whatever I might be having an allergic reaction to. It opens the pores and allows the moisturizer to sink in better.
I am not ever a switch, but I am a Dominant Self-Maschocist... I cut my own hair, too... nobody else can do it for me as well as I can... Artistic Snobbery.
Grieving at the death of my beloved slave cymbal, I laced myself into a 22" leather & steel boned corset and wore it for several days. I felt that I needed to give my insides a physical reason to be hurting so much, it made the emotional pain easier for my brain to handle.
It really makes me wonder how many people there are who are labeled self destructive because they like to stick pins in themselves, or something,...are actually unconsciously seeking to alleviate depression with endorphin? Using pain to keep themselves in balance?
Ever noticed how you feel a little lightheaded after a blood test? Piercing is an invasion of the external envelope, and produces powerful endorphins.
There are some reasons besides fashion that piercing has become so popular.
I scratch my head a lot while I am thinking and writing, not unusual... scalps are very sensitive, a little positive perk makes thinking go better.
Adrenaline, is a substance produced by the body when the body needs to escape or fight.
Both of these chemicals serve a slightly different purpose for our needs, as well.
Using intense sensation to experience altered or transcendent mental states is not a new idea.
The early Christians used to flog themselves until they experienced endorphin ecstasy,
they interpreted the sensations as the Holy Spirit filling them with joy.
The biochemistry of the brain is barely understood,
Many religions prescribe some form of torture, humiliation, or personal sacrifice as a requirement to become closer to Goddess/God.
At some point the pain would cause him to leave his body and go find the herd in the astral, then go back and tell the tribe where they were.
There is a Modern Primitives fellow who goes by the Name of Fakir Musafar, who has done the sundance several times, and describes it as a spiritual opening that never closed entirely. He has had 40 years experince travelling the world and participating in primitive rituals. He started on his own, in secret as a teenager.
The third way is the body-first way. This is the way of the Shaman and the Fakir. By using some kind of intense sensation in the physical body, you focus all concentration on one particular space in the physical body. After that, you can take the attention and make it go inward [to] explore your inner space. Your attention cannot wander when you're doing something intense. [And] when your attention [is this] focused, it's possible for something to happen. [You may] direct the attention into another sphere of consciousness. Shamanic activity for the most part [is] intent on body focus.
The Fakirs of India have been a staple of National Geographic for years, with their religious self torture, although National Geographic never shows some of the more bizarre, sexual pain rituals.
Even Asceticism taken to extremes could be called masochistic.
Perhaps it's possible that one reason why these games are so intense for us, there is some genetic memory that takes us back to primitive times, when testing yourself with pain was the surest way to achieve personal growth.
Author and family counselor John Bradshaw has a theory that the complete absence of challenging, humiliating and painful Rites of Passage in European/North American society has resulted in population of adults that are emotionally still children.
I'm not sure that I entirely agree with his theory, but I have seen intense experiences resulting in personal growth, and Kundalini Awakening.
The mystics would say it's yin and yang,
Like light and darkness, the opposites are truly one,
The endorphin experience is about embracing intense sensations as a gift, a path that when accepted will take the seeker to the place where all becomes ecstasy.
Lamaze natural childbirth training is one place to learn how to do this.
Whenever we deliberately undertake internal voyaging with intense experiences,
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